yet another dream with papi

ok...otro sueño con mi papa.
bueno la verdad es que no son sueños, son pesadillas. siempre son en un lugar raro. a place where i can' t call home a place where i feel extremely un safe. but here we are my farther and i in this place and we are trying to find a way out. usually in the "dreams" i am running away from him. this time i was helping him to get out of this building/field weird house place. But he couldn't walk well because he was insured. I asked him "papi donde te lastimastes" and hi points to his penis and there is blood bleeding tru the front of his pants. i really don't want to see how or where he is insured. i spot some people around the house and asked them if they had a first aid kit to help my farther. the man answer yes and my farther left wih them and i left him there.
there is a lot more but i can't remeber.
i can't remember many things from my childhood and sometimes it freaks me out. quizas es mejor no saber nada y seguir viviendo con la duda o simplemente dejar ir esa memoria gris del pasado.